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	2004.06.08  14.00 Been a long time since I last posted but thats because nothing has been going on. I wonder how the people who went to yosemite are liking it...its probably better than sitting in grande's class with only two other people being bored out of your mind but hey, i could be wrong. oh, i finally got a new car, a mustang. yea i know, i've always hated them and it still doesnt feel like my car but it is a fairly reliable means of transportation so i cant complain. I need a means of making money, so if anyone has any suggestions please feel free to contribute. Mood: bored Music: mr. soloff whistling...like he does everyday

	2004.05.04  19.41 I dont know how to describe the moods I've been getting in lately. They can best be equated to a mild panic attack/anxiety but the conundrum lies in the fact that there shouldnt be anything stressing me out. Its not college, its not my grades...I just dont know. Sometimes I get sick of feeling. Sometimes i think that it wouldnt be a bad thing if i just became the bad person that some people think I am. The drug dealer. the criminal. I dont know sometimes, its just hard dealing with shit. Mood: discontent Music: Thursday- For the workforce drowning

	2004.04.04  17.12 People who rat other people out, suck ass. No reason for posting that other than the fact that its true

	2004.03.21  15.59 So I've just been chilling and laying about all day, and in my musings on everything i've come to an important conclusion. Mrs. grande is a colossal bitch. Oh, and the fact that i went to a "highly gifted" magnet has so far played no part in aiding me in getting into college. So fuck the magnet, fuck it in its stupid ass. I watched Matchstick Men with eric and max last night, it was a decent movie, kinda slow but it has a good plot twist. And Tombstone is a great movie. "It's a nocturn, you know, Frederick fucking Chopin." Mood: content Music: Millencolin- fingers crossed

	2004.03.19  17.10 An end to a very long week. Its had some ups and downs but overall a decent week. Listening to Initial D music really takes me back. Oh and possible new car coming this weekend. Thats it

	2004.03.10  16.47 Back to School... So school is back in session. I hate it like usual but I'm not in a depressed state yet. It's more like apathy towards almost eveything, a general "not caring" if you will. Although I guess I'm somewhat depressed but it isn't to previous levels. Whatever. It stems back to many things and theres not much i can do about it. Fuck it, lets get high. Mood: apathetic Music: Iggy Pop and Sum 41- Little Know it All

	2004.03.08  13.40 What Drifting Car Are You??? by animportdriftr What Drifting car are you? Car Nissan Skyline Style Clutch Kick Brand Do-Luck Rims Volk Suspension A'Pex Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

	2004.02.19  17.57 AFI concert in Bakersfield last night. It was pretty good. I'm in a bad mood right now...i need some more drugs... Mood: pissed off Music: AFI- Ever and a Day

	2004.01.23  02.57 Tiger Style 36 Chambers is a fucking awesome album. Get it. "If you want beef then bring the ruckus, Wu Tang Clan ain't nothing to fuck with" So yea, I've rediscovered my love of rap, I seem to go in cycles where I oscilate(sp?) from punk rock to gangster rap. Who knows what that means. Im not sure if I'm going to go to sleep tonight, because on the one hand i could go to sleep but I could also just stay up and I'd be just as rested and more than capable of partying tomorrow night if i got no sleep. An interesting conundrum indeed. one that I guess I'll ponder later. Mood: fucking gangster Music: Wu Tang Clan- Ain't Nothing to Fuck With

	2004.01.23  00.49 on a lighter note, when are afros going to go back in style?

	2004.01.22  00.41 Which Final Fantasy (IV-X) Character are you? by steevi

	2004.01.20  02.27 Time can't be stopped...not even with a shotgun And the winter break continues. I'm not sure how I feel about the way my days progress, actually screw that, I like how my days go; sleeping until 2 in the afternoon, going out to parties and such until 2 in the morning you know good shit like that. the only thing I regret is that I havent seen some friends in a long time.(Bryan, I'm sorry by the way about whatever we were fighting about.) I kinda need a job though because alchohol/other intoxicants are getting expensive so if anyone knows of anything please let me know. Now we get to the point in this post were i just ramble about anything that comes into my head at any given point. I dont really feel like sleeping but i dunno, that doesnt seem like its interesting enough...hmmm...Oh, Story of the Year is an awesome band, get the album Page Ave. "We both take the hardest punches And collect black eyes just to prove it, Still we pass by just like strangers And we speak just like the closest enemies" Yea, awesome lyrics and awesome band. Rented Vice City, its pretty good what with the 80's theme and all. As i stare at a bottle of nail polish remover I wonder why does it smell so bad, then i realize its because it has acetone in it. Useless, useless queries. This is pissing me off, they have Sugarcult lyrics on lyrics.com but they dont have Story of the year?! That is re-goddamn-diculous. Fucking Sugarcult...ok google time. Ah yes, lyricsondemand.com excellent...alright im getting the feeling that its pointless to keep on like this so im going to bed. goodnight Mood: awake Music: Story of the Year- And the Hero Will Drown

	2004.01.18  02.06 My life as Towely Im sitting here with some chicken in one hand and goldfish in my other. Im so high right now... Mood: high

	2004.01.16  14.28 Why did they make the blue M&M the smarmy one?

	2004.01.11  03.27 Its really amazing the amount of lies people tell over the course of one day. I don't know why I'm thinking about that, well, actually I do but that's no ones business but my own. Anyway, I like how my days pass: go to sleep anywhere from 1 to 3 at night and wake up at 2-4 the next day. Everything is so much easier to deal with / just looks better at night. perhaps its the concealing nature of the night, I don't know, I don't know anything anymore...fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. Well that wasn't productive in the slightest. Lets try it again. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. Nope, still not doing anything, there goes my "swearing solves everything" theory, "ok, out the fucking window!" It's strange. It's late but im not tired, i've decided for the most part to dispense with proper punctuation for contractions for the remainder of this meandering post so deal with it. Now im at a loss for what to write, a sort of writers block if you will although i intensly(sp?) dislike that phrase. I dont know why though, just sort of annoys me when self-absorbed, smug assholes take to saying it to excuse their own inabilty to write anything to save their life. ooh, a flare-up of anger just then...odd. I dont eat much anymore, just sleep, drink and smoke. I'm really not sure of the point of this post, mainly its because i dont want to go to sleep right now, also its because im in the mood to ramble on in no general direction. One's literary self is an interesting comparison to how that particular person is in actuality. Although one's written self could be considered their actual self so I guess I should say its an interesting comparison between one's written self and how one acts in public or around other people. Myself for example, am rarely this verbose and, at least as far as i think, am for the most part sullen and non-talkative. This post however is antonymical to that personality but what this says or proves, I really cant say. just something to muse on I suppose. Another query of mine...shit, forgot what i was going to say. oh well, this post is long enough so now im gonna go to sleep...if you can call it that. goodnight.

	2004.01.06  12.07 For those not in the know, I got a tattoo yesterday. I was just sitting there in my house and suddenly I decided to get one. So I called up eric and first we went to this place Yoni tattoo ( which smells funky) and the guy was like not tonight that will take 3-4 hours but then we went to Art to the Bone and the owner did it in 2.5. So its kinda like a clover but more badass, trust me, its hard as hell.

	2004.01.05  16.46 As yesterday was my birthday, I've decided to give myself a birthday present. I'm not saying what it is, you'll just have to guess and wait to see if you're right. Mood: cheerful Music: CKY-Flesh into Gear

	2003.12.22  12.08 While driving back to my house, bryan and I were musing about words and why certain things are called certain, like its an arm, not a swishkabooble( from now on an arm is a swishkabooble) and then bryan starts talking about how every words definition could be broken down into smaller words and those could be broken down uuntil u have a short definition describing every word in existence. And I figured out the "It is" is the smallest definition that still defines every word ever. So i rule. Oh, btw, i have the house to myself for 4 days. again, I rule. Mood: stoked

	2003.12.14  21.04 I just have one thing to say. Pennywise and AFI are fucking awesome live. Music: Pennywise- Bro Hymn

	2003.12.07  21.05 I feel caged. Like everything is boxing me in on all sides...it isn't a good feeling. I don't know what will make me feel better. I hope it keeps raining for a few more days, mountain roads+ rain=good times Mood: listless

	2003.12.02  00.05 HAHAHA What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex by UMAJohnnie Name Sexuality Age Most Likely to Say "Ima fuck you in HALF." Created with quill18's MemeGen!

	2003.12.01  16.36 Just as I previously predicted my bad mood has passed and once again I'm bright-eyed and optimistic...or as close as I can be to that. Let's see, anything exciting happened recently...hmm...field trip tomorrow which should be fun, bryon and i were saying how we should rob the federal reserve(just think of how many people could put that on their college application). As I wrote that previous sentence, I realize that it'll probably be picked up by some government computer scanning program so if Im not here tomorrow then avenge my death. Nonsense aside, things are going alright. My presentation for Grande today was laughable, much props to david for his hard work, and the total opposite of props to katie for whing and complaining. Grades have been pushed from the forefront of my mind as have college apps. I want to do something big this weekend...i dont kno what but feel free to suggest stuff. Mood: calm Music: Story of the Year- Until the day I die

	2003.11.19  21.39 I want a big ass sword...along the lines of the buster sword. No real reason, just that it would be cool. Well, I guess since I have this open I might as well do a real update since I havent had one in a long time. Today at school was alright, in math we did nothing, english did nothing, biology showed everyone that I am a sexual phenom. Econ was chill today since I just discussed casinos and strip clubs with naveen. Then in Lab Tech I was playing Unreal Tournament and Doc 'Rani comes in to have me take some kid down to the magnet office. I figure it was because he really fucked up or something but no, its because he wears pajamas to school. Yes, pajamas are against the magnet's dress code, I was under the impression that the magnet was under the main school's jurisdiction and since the school dress code doesnt say anything about no pajamas I pronounce that rule total bullshit. I'm wearing sweats tomorrow, I wonder if Spad will say anything, fuck her, I could give a fuck, Leheiden forever all niggas Mood: full Music: Initial D- Running in the 90's

	2003.11.14  23.31 "Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die" Mood: blank

	2003.11.11  12.32 Last night OWN3D! Last night was really fun. It began with Bryan and I going to visit Anna to see how she was feeling, Matt then met us there. From Anna's we went to Winnetka 20 to play Initial D(I played like shit). After causing a ruckus in the parking lot Byron and Dan showed, more ruckus followed including lumberjack contests and urinating on a bush. Everyone piled into Matt's fly player lexus and went to get mongolian barbeque. It was pretty good. Then we drove around aimlessly/looking for a strip club to go to...needless to say it didnt work out. What really made the night great was the conversations, oh man, so funny. And sprinting through the mall for shotgun seat. Mood: good Music: Initial D- No One Sleep In Tokyo